Days of Trepidation

And there are days when I forget how long I've been here

how many years I've lived this life

And I think years don't matter

I still feel strange some days

that I am me but also someone else

Someone that other people see

and I am not sure who that is

I worry that if I asked you

to paint a picture of me

I wouldn't recognize myself

And I think some days I am omniscient

but most days I'm blind

and it's too bad but ...

there isn't much I can do

And I am a rocking chair

I am a little unstable

but still solid as a rock

I move and change

but imperceptibly

shifting in the wind

and you can lay your head here

and I will soothe you

You can put your heart here

and it won't break

You can be vulnerable

and I won't wound you

Maybe some day you'll see that I am

someone you can trust

So I will love you because you deserve it

not because I think I should

and I don't care if you are frightened

it's okay to be afraid

for love can make us vulnerable & naked

ily, 2002