cheater

i'm a cheater
and a sinner
and a liar
and a killer

But you didn't know

and i'm good
and i'm bad
and i smile
when i'm sad

i cry when i'm angry
and yell when i'm hurt
and when i feel bad
i only want to feel worse

i have sex to feel numb
and make love to feel alive
and i can mean every word i say
whenever i lie

i can play mind games
and win every time
only to end up the loser
Regretting my crimes

Sometimes i'm sorry
Mostly i'm not
Should a fire apologize
for the fact that it's hot?

Should i be sorry
i burned you
when you came too close?
Should i be sorry
my love turned to
Ashes and smoke?

If you hold onto fire
It'll eventually die
And you will see
That it's empty
There's nothing inside

i hurt you & scarred you
and allowed you to believe
That i was something tangible
That i had some tricks up my sleeve

My brightness is painful
My beauty just smoke
My fierceness an illusion
My heart, just a joke.

ily 2010