Debris and Detritus

Plastic melts from the stare she gives
and you know if looks could kill
You'd at least be maimed
There aren't really words
to say at times like this
How can you apologize
for something you didn't do
That feeling you just couldn't feel
You wish you could feel something
Anything other than guilty
But she knows you don't have it in you
So it's better not to pretend
Just not to say anything
Leave it all unsaid until the end
Another awkward silence
Another half-closed door
when the only thing left
Is what was there before
When what once held promise
becomes an empty, vacant space
and those vacant, empty feelings
are reflected by the sadness in her face
How does one apologize for a broken heart
For promises never really uttered
Which nevertheless fell apart
For broken dreams
You can't cram into your pockets
Or carry away from here
There will always be those extra bits
All the debris and detritus
Pieces of incomplete emotions
that didn't fit into the puzzle
2000 shades of gray
Like your heart, wearing a muzzle
When nothing you find
can ever quite express
this trapped feeling
of total loneliness
Apologies are empty words
and that is all they are
Expressions of regret
that won't erase the scar.

ily, 2000