LOQUACITY

Effluent burst of loquacity
verbalizing -- but meaninglessly
torrents of silence
all is said in silences
neither gestures, nor words
but their absences
Pictures do not speak a thousand words
simply leave room for conjecture
and speculation
endless pursuits
supermarket tabloid gossip
Build a fort of words
a staircase
words have lifted me
from the depths
the rocky bottom
one brick at a time
My walls were once made of:

VACANCY
DESPERATION
EMPTINESS
DESPONDENCY
SOLITUDE
SECRECY
WANDERING
LOSS * FRUSTRATION
BLAME * GUILT * FURY
HOPELESSNESS * SUSPICION
FEAR

These walls were scaled with

ACCEPTANCE
LAUGHTER
FEARLESSNESS
CONFIDENCE
CALMNESS
FORGIVENESS
TRUST
COMPANIONSHIP

But here I am
slipping slightly
when I cannot clearly see before me
hesitant to step
afraid to fall
into known traps
ALONE
where friends are afraid to tread
and I only hear their voices
as if from a great distance
I am right beside
but invisible
and lost in blackness

ily, 2001