Desperation

Slam the door on my thumb
while you slam the door on my heart
I'm completely numb
but it should be tearing me apart
I can't alleviate my desperation
I've got nowhere to go
Like breathing without respiration
it's blow after blow
my soul is bruised
my fingers burned
my heart's been used
my love's been spurned
want to punch a hole
right through your heart
break it like the one that you stole
you thought you were so smart
but I can't hurt you
I can only hurt myself
for all the mean things that you do
and wish I were somebody else
but you will pay
some day in the end
I'll find a way
to get back at you, my friend
I am desperate
and I am lost
I'm not worried
about the cost
the pain you give
which I receive
is where I live
with no reprieve.

ily, 1998