Dark Angel

I am something complex and confusing
So simple that you see
not many people have tackled
the conundrum that is me
I am a labyrinthine puzzle
A circular path
Spiraling down from meaningfulness
To vulgarity
Am I a beautiful angel
Or the whore you desire?
And maybe I am both
Or neither
And I can't be one or the other
For all I am is what you see
I am the virgin whore dichotomy
I am a woman and a child
I am innocent and tainted
Impure, fallen and you see
I will never quite be
What you desire so desperately
I will never be pure enough
Never be innocent
I can only be a dark angel
No white lights shine on me
I earned my divinity
Through pain and torture
So you can never truly know
How far rock-bottom is
How far you'd have to go
To pull me from the pit
After my fall from grace
But don't worry I'm transcendent
Hovering around this place
Like a ghost
A spirit to haunt your heart
It is all that I desire
And I will hover here
For a while.

Ily, 2002