I am a Changeling

Perhaps the world’s just as you say

In which case I’m obviously in your way

I impede your cynical belief system

I won’t buy your lies

Because I don’t view myself through your eyes

I am not a burden and a pain

I am not as significant as you claim

And though I represent your mistakes

They are not a part of me

I am beautiful

I am pure

I am valid

I am secure

And nothing you say can change those facts

I am myself, not some phony act

I won’t play games to be accepted

Take me as I am

Or don’t take me at all

I won’t stumble

I won’t fall

I will climb higher

When you’re not there

I’ll float and fly

Even if you don’t care

And you might try to keep me down

For countless reasons I don’t need to know

Because you are afraid to fly

And therefore I must dwell far below

I don’t think so

Maybe someday you’ll grow up and see

All the mean things you’ve done to me

But I doubt it

You won’t change

But I will

I am a changeling

A fairy-child in disguise

Shifting and morphing

Before your eyes

And I will never be

Whoever it is you think I am

I’ll escape the prison of your poisoned words

The bars built by jealousy

Which have never come close to touching me

I don’t need your love

I don’t need your acceptance

And I don’t need to play this game

This twisted crazy dance

In which you love me one minute

And resent me the next

I don’t deserve your scorn

Your curses or your hex

Your love is a hoax

And I’ll no longer coax

It out of its cage

Where it retreats

Only to elude me

I am smarter than you think I am

Braver and much more secure

Though those are talents you never taught me

I don’t know where they came from

Years of fighting

And recriminations

Accusations

And insults

Have somehow made me a nicer person

You have shown me

Exactly who I don’t want to be

You are everything that is abhorrent to me

And though I love you

And you love me not

You haven’t got the

Strength that I’ve got.

Ily